Christmas Inspiration.

Life lately has been a clash of emotions..... but HEY what else is new??

yesterday was Christmas.... what a joyous Holiday right??... i guess....

I REMEMBER... way back wen Christmas was something that i waited all year for... shopping for a trees.... trying my hardest to go to sleep so i can wake up and see what santa bought me.... and big gift.... TV's... Video Game Sytems.... clothes... shoes... underwear... and of course... HELLA TOYS!!!.... but now in adulthood... Christmas isnt the same... last year i realized it wouldnt be the same when i got Clinique Facial Cleansers for christmas and a cologne that is still completely full 1 WHOLE year later... the shade wasnt that i hated my gifts... cuz i didn't... on any other day i would have been a willing recipient of these things to better my appearance and ....scent??... but on christmas... as my brothers opened up there clothes, dvds and random trinkets.... i was str8 up jealous and didnt even wanna be in the State anymore...... A year has gone by.... and I've done alot of growing up.... i put it in my head that i wasnt getting ANYTHING for Christmas... so that even if I got HUG i'd be satisfied because that was more than was expected.... more than anyone could expect in a recession... lol.... therefore i came out on top! My mom got me a Ralph Lauren Polo robe(Ralph Lauren is currently my favorite label..... theres barely a day that goes by that i'm not clad in something by RL....) AND a subscription to my FAVORITE men's Fashion Magazine.... Gentlemen's Quarterly Better Known as GQ.... later on i the day, i got a fab scarf and $50 gift card to H&M (one of the spots I always end up at for random things... underwear, accessories, sweaters etc. etc.) from my secret santa.... my fabulous cousin Kina.......

That's Kina... =)

Now Christmas was cool... even after I wanted to fight my brother... lmao... what was the arguement about?? idk.... but i was already making myself mad at him before he even told me to pick my shit up in his room....

See, I'm the oldest.... and i do for my brothers as much as i can... but sometimes i get the feeling that they bond to each other more because of their similarities.... they play sports... down to play video games and generally share similar interest and they grew up in this neighborhood so they have all the same friends.... fine.... I was jealous... The Reason? Aaron Bought Kyle the same sneakers as him... they both wore them with their argyle sweaters and took pictures of their lil matchin' ensembles.... GRANTED.... I dont have the desire to wear "Pippens" but the fact that he thought it was cool for him and kyle to have the same kicks kinda made me jealous... maybe just cause I thought i was an equal part off this "brotherhood"... after all without me who knows where they'd be....

<<< The Pippens<<<<

on another less jealous note I've complied a list... i like to call it... Randy's impossibly impossible christmas list... just because i know that i'll prolly never get these things.... or atleast no time soon... here we go...

1. Black Burberry trench(Featured in GQ).... it's sleek, sexy and elegant.... I live. $1,195

2. Red Gucci Cardigan(Another item featured in Dec. 2008 issue of GQ) $965

3. Marc Jacobs Cashmere Skully(perferably in black or navy)... my obsession with cashmere has yet to be satisfied $495

4.Ralph Lauren Men's Brickston Riding Boot. Who said guys couldn't wear riding boots?$1,099.95

5. Meeting the 'DIVA' herself... Mrs. Carter.... BKA Beyonce.

Thanks Bimbo for the pic....=)

Til the Urge comes over me again. Deuces!